I am finding there is no place in my life for certain things anymore. There are certain, seemingly insignificant things that rob me of the joy I normally find in my life. Right now I’m thinking about blogs. Specifically, certain “mommy blogs.” I have found that I can go from complete contentment with my life to despair in a couple of moments. I won’t say which blogs they are because it isn’t important. But the truth is I know which they are and I’m not sure why I EVER go there.
It’s a strange thing to envy a stranger. Even weirder still because I KNOW what they post is only an tiny snippet of their life. I love my life. I love my boys. I love my husband. I love my home, my pets and my friends. I love my garden, my morning walks and my wonderful talks with my little loves. I have so much to grateful for but in a moments click I can rob myself of this knowledge.
So I’m saying, THAT’S IT! I need to say no (to myself) to clicking on those trigger websites. I don’t care if I’m bored at the moment or looking for a little distraction. I NEED to find somewhere or something else to distract me that won’t take me down this road because I do not want to be that person. The person who has so much to be grateful for and somehow wants more.